Story of my life part 1

From the start of my relationship i was not honest about where i came from,what i wanted out of a relationship.I wasnt a man born of saying alot,im a guy of few words like  my father.Never knew the outcome of being my father will lead me to this path where i would face this.I despised my father so much the day i came to be beaten by him for no reason.My life turned out to hate him so much for what he did to him,that day i bonded with my mother more than before.The reason why im writing this is i blame him for who i grown up to be and at the same time i forgave him for that day.It pains me so much it makes me realize i forgave him to late.He tried to bring out the man in me but with my ignorance and attitude towards him was so boiling to the point of no return.Many people ask me why i dont write like Sidney Sheldon and i would always say i dont match him.This has brought so much much pain in my life,of hich i blame my self.

Fullest love i have ever reached

I did reach that fullest of love and i will never regret that fullest of love even though it didnt reach the fullest pontential.All i can say is i will never regret the love i got and how much i sacrificed to get that love.My heart bleeds out as my life runs out,blood was more important to me but when i first laid my eyes on her it was like i have reached my fullest pontetial of my destiny.God told me she was the one and i did as HE desired.I knew as i was falling inlove with her daily that my destiny was going to be fulfilled but as time progressed,they were alot of ups and downs which she couldnt take and it affected me alot,my heart wasnt mouldered to be strong like other man,mine was made soft to understand women but i didnt have time to understand all about women but according to HIM i was going to understand a great deal from her,the one HE had chosen for me.But as we know not all men are strong as we thought.As much faith i had,she didnt see the same,i guess peoples faith differs,i dont know just saying.My heart is crushed differently like before which i cant explain.What God had planned for me and her was far more greater than any person could imagine but me i couldnt reach that destiny without her.I have failed but what i can say is it will be fulfilled one way or the other.This destiny is bigger than any other destiny.

Lost

Lost is what i am now at the moment,don't know where i came from,where i am going and what i am to do when i get there.I begin to recall the old saying which goes,"grow up and see for your self",and that's what i am experiencing in life right now,we all have to face the same challenges at a certain stage of life.We pretend like all things are fine and when actually nothing is,you don't know who to go seek help from cause of fear of being laughed at.Not fear only but also the advice it self cause a lot pain.Some help you cant get it from parents cause you don't want to trouble them or the problem it self cant involve parents.Got no one to talk to about my problem,every where i go i leave tear drops falling like leaves in Autumn.

Those nights

I remember those nights when i would be up late at nights talking to GOD.HE would ask me the kind of woman i wanted to spend the rest of my life with,i told HIM its hard to say,He would just tell me to say it coz HE was GOD who answered prayers.I told HIM wanted a woman i would look up to in times were i am lost and confused,a woman who never gives up on me specially in times were i dont listen coz i am a guy who is so stubborn.A woman who is willing to spend day in and day out with me and who never gets bored to be around me 24/7,a woman who can tolerate my childish behaviour coz i am a person who wants to spend his life like a youth.A woman who i can freely share ideas with and a woman who i can tell anything thats on my mind even though i know it might hurt her but knowing we will get through it together.A woman i will go with every Sunday to church and worship YOU,A woman who can depend on me and me depend on her when it comes to challenges and problems.When i look back then,i discoverd that woman i asked for i do now have her in my life,For that i thank you GOD.

Dreams

Dreams make us happy, sad and mad.

Dreams are premonitions for telling

Us the future and the present.

Dreams tell us what we are going to

Be in life and what we are at present.

Dreams replicate the future, giving us

Hope that we will make it in life.

Without dreams, we will or would be

Nothing in life but just the same as being objects

Of the earth such as stones ,trees and hills.

Dreams are like visions with its version

Of its own in order to give us faith.

Without having the thing at present moment.

Dreams are blessings from GOD.

Smile

The first time I laid my eyes on you I was blinded by the most wonderful smile that I had never seen In my entire life. Since then I can imagine the greatest things, Since then the world seems to be such a marvelous place.Every little thing has more impact on men every flower is more colorful than gold or silver, Every bird sings such a sweet melod...

Beauty Qoute

A heart is like a puzzle,waiting to be joined together,so its true beauty is shown.....